Tomorrow is the big day and I think I am starting to panic. I cant even imagine what tomorrow is going to be like. I have to be there at 7:30 am. THATS 12 HOURS FROM NOW!! I really hope everything goes smoothly and the pain isnt as bad as my head is making it out to be. I am such a big baby lol. But at least I know and admit it. I know I can do this!! I have been getting phone calls, visits, and messages today that have made me feel very loved and thought of :) And thanks to everyone on here that have made me feel a bit more comfortable and cared about :)
I am trying to work on the house but my brain is so scattered that I cant focus very well. I got clothes washed and towels folded and random little things that dont amount to much lol I am running on excess nervous energy. Its so hard to blieve that tomorrow is the begining of a whole new life. I had been doing all this stuff for the end result (surgery) And now that its here I am freaking out. I just feel like I am floating or its dreamlike. All this time I thought for sure since I wanted it so bad that there is no way it could happen. Around every corner I was expecting something to crush the dream. But tomorrow is the day and IT IS REALLY HAPPENING! I am feeling very emotional about this. WHEW!!!
I know this blog is a bunch of randomness but like I said I am just trying to release stuff from my head so maybe I can focus. And I keep getting interupted by people calling and I cant even focus on what they are saying. lol Ok I am going to quit before the men in white coats come to take me away HA HA