Well I have been through 7 months (actually 9 because I messed up) of nutrition therapy. I have had my psych evaluation and met my surgeon. I have all my preop testing coming up on the 3rd of feb. Then for the crazy Liver Shrinking Diet. I am deffinatly not looking forward to that lol And then last but deffinatly not least SURGERY DAY FEB 11!!!!
I have to be honest right now I am scared to death. This is going to be my first real surgery and probably the biggest one of my life. This surgery is going to be like being reborn. I have read about peoples bandiversary. I cant wait for mine! I cant wait to see all the changes that will happen in my life good or bad. I have always been fat and really dont know any other way to live. My life has been molded around my weight. I am hoping I dont have some kind of identity crisis.
I am also scared that I will feel vunerable not being as big. I have always been able to take care of myself in situations because I was big enough to beat ya down if I have to. I am sure there will be alot of mental road blocks I will hit and have to break down. I actually have no idea what to expect except what I have read in forums. Everyone has a different experience so I guess I just wait and see what happens.
I am luckier then most because I have no out of pocket pay and an amazing support group. Most of all my mother who is my biggest fan. She is always behind me being the awesome cheerleader. Anytime I feel like I am going to fall apart she is there to pick up the peices and tell me everyone screws up just get back on track. I also have a ton of friends who are very good to me. I guess you could say I am blessed!