Saturday, April 10, 2010

The Food Vampire Strikes Again!


Why is it in the light of day I am little Mrs Perfect Bander but as soon as the sun falls I turn into a Food Vampire?  I mean I stalk my prey in the kitchen then suck the life out of it.  I really wish I could rip that sweet tooth out with a pair of pliers! UGH!  During the day I am not hungry and usually eat just what my tummy can handle (fish, cheese, other good for ya stuff)  But when the sun goes down that vampire in me comes out.  I want anything sweet.  I try to fill the craving with a sugar free fudgepop but lately I have been craving Ice cream from sonic so bad.  I got one taste and it was over now I am always wanting it.  BAD ROBIN! *smacks my nose with a newspaper*  I know its bad but sometimes I just want to forget excercise, food, and weight.  I just want to sit down and eat food like I used to.  Be able to eat without any pain or sliming!!

I seem to forget often that I am banded.  I went to go get some fast food (ya I know another newspaper smack)  I got a regular meal with no large size upgrade.  I took like 10 fries at the most and 4 nuggets and I had to put the nuggets away and hand over the fries to the BF.  So I have learned a little more that fast food is just a waste of my money (and calories)  From now on if I get anything fast food it will be a childs meal!  Plus my godchildren always love a new toy :)  When we order from my fav chinese resturant (Happiness Resturant ROX!)  It takes me ALL day to eat what I would have in 20 minutes preband.  That is a real feeling of accomplishment.  Plus the BF is getting results from my weight loss.  He is sweet and tries to stretch out his eating with me so I am not sitting alone eating way after hes done.  Plus he exercises on the Wii and we are both getting healthier.  He has lost weight and isnt eating as much as before because he doesnt want to eat bad things in front of me.  Plus my mom and some of the ladies from the needline have went on diets too.  It freaks me out when they ask me for advice lol  I am like really?  No one ever has looked at me and asked for health secrets.  I try to help as much as possible and try to share the things the nutritionists taught me.  But it just seems weird to be an inspiration to people.  I have ALWAYS been the poster girl for WHAT NOT TO DO!

I have noticed alot lately that I must be losing weight in my mouth area because I am speaking my mind more.  As an uber fat girl I never wanted to say anything to people because I needed all the people I could get.  I was afraid if my balls dropped and I spoke my mind that everyone would just turn around and leave and Id be all alone.  Thats not true at all.  It has shocked some people but I am going to continue dangling my new found balls all over the place.  I even smacked the BF in the face with them the other day.  (ok that mental picture was FUNNY)  I have just found I can ask for what I want and the world will not collapse in around me.  YAY!!  I plan to practice this some more.  Excuse me while I hula hoop just to watch my balls dangle ;) (wow i think i am falling in love with balls LOL)

I bought a new spring shirt from walmart just to make me feel pretty.  IT WORKED!  I wore it and my little black skirt with my rainbow sandels.  I put on my sunglasses to pull my hair back and a little eyeliner.  I looked at myself and thought damn girl you are looking good.  I also had a shock moment at my friends house.  She bought me a swim suit in a smaller size so I have something to work for this spring to get into.  The bottoms arent going to work at all.  My fat roll hangs out the side of it and SO NOT ATTRACTIVE TO ANYONE!  (it IS a 2 piece)  Never thought I would wear anything but shorts and a tshirt lol.  The top looked amazing (minus the ten tons of arm blubber that I cant stand)  I looked in the mirror and froze...was that really me?  WOW  I had a "you go girl" moment with myself.  I cant wait to have more moments like that.  I cant wait to walk into a store and shop around :)  I have always had a shopping fear because nothing ever fit.  Now I am finding things in a real store that fit and make me feel good WOOT!

14 comments:

  1. Robin it's so good to see you discovering yourself, or better still, liking yourself. Go girl go!!!
    Caroline

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  2. That is awesome you are feeling great Robin!!

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  3. OMG _ I have missed you terribly. Do not disappear again mmmkkkaaay? LOVE this post - all of it - every single word. LOVE you too!

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  4. I feel you on the sweet tooth! If you like to cook, you should check out the cooking light website. They have tons of easy dessert recipes that are low in calories and fat but big on taste!!

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  5. Robin, I think you should designate one night every two weeks as your sweet night. Plan to have a Sonic ice cream. Look forward to it for the rest of the time and ENJOY it!

    Most of the time I try to avoid sweets (even SF ones) because they leave me with tons of cravings, but I find that when I plan for them, I am completely SATISFIED.

    You are doing so well and it is good to see a post from you.

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  6. Man your vampire picture is scary, but yet I couldn't look away. Disturbing. "You go girl" moments are great, aren't they? Congrats.

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  7. I have a sweet tooth too! Amandakiska has a good idea about having one night out of 2 weeks to eat something sweet. I like that idea.

    Fast Food is a waste of money! I haven't had fast food in a looong time, but I have notice that I have more money.

    You're doing really good!

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  8. Firstly - can we have a vlog with the whole 'smacks self in the nose' thing? - lol!!

    Secondly if you love the top of the swimmers but not so much the bottoms - wear it with a sarong!! So flattering :-)

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  9. I get the sweet thing in the evening too and had to stop buying the ice cream I think it was because I was hungry and it went down so well. My creed now is I say to myself, no eating after 7:00 pm and for me it works (most nights!). It's just a deadline I find works to say the kitchen is closed. But I still walk around opening cupboards and the fridge just staring at the emptyness.

    That picture is scary.

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  10. i'm shaking my head at you "smacking" your bf in the face with your "balls" .... LOVE YOU! lololololol

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  11. Hi Robin, how's things?? Not like you not to blog for two weeks - hope all is OK?
    Caroline

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  12. Robin - hope you're OK. As you can see from the comment above, I've changed my profile pic...
    Look forward to hearing from you.
    Caroline

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  13. Hi! How are you? Where did you go? Are you ok? :)

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